Mike left the group chat.

sigh...
I feel awful, it feels awful, I guess this is what I deserve, in a way, right? I know nobody will read this, I am literally writing into the void right now, but that makes me comfortable somehow, venting to cope. Yesterday I blocked an annoying fuck who I should have blocked long ago, and, all just to help this girl, this real person in front of me. I got her a sandwich, I wanted her to know that she deserves attention, that she deserves to be loved, that she matters, and that I am here to help her if something's going wrong in her life, being what she is must be so hard and alien... Her reaction was simply robotic, yet somehow, filled with anger, those same cold animal eyes, beastly, she simply told me to fuck off. I gave up, maybe the stereotypes are true, maybe they are simply this blunt and should not be interacted with... It just... broke my heart, everything I believe on, has been shattered by the single person I tried to help. What is the point? ... was it to feel better with myself?
Why am I failing?