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family.

i have good memories with my family, actually, they clearly aren't bad people, they simply always tried to cheer me up and make me feel loved even though they, in a way, did the same things everyone else does against me.

my parents adopted me off a freak orphanage or pet shop or any degrading name you might want to give it, after the wonderland thing of course, and ever since they've been treating me as their child, which is a stark contrast from the dark, almost jail-like little zoo i was trapped on.

a bed, a food bowl, water, and some sunlight, hey, it's EVERYTHING I COULD ASK FOR........

they gave me love, and, honestly i still wonder why did they decide to adopt me instead of a normal human child, someone who was easy to understand and domesticate, someone who was not going to dig holes in the backyard and bury stuffed toys there.

i feel like it was my fault...

i ruined their love, i ruined their relationship, i became a symbol of pavlovian conditioning against eachother, i feel like an annoying pet that simply won't die, i'm 3 years above the average time things like me should last, at max.

the song that will never stop playing in my head, a lullaby, of two people playing pretend.

what this smartass harry does not understand is that i do not want to talk to them, that i do not care about them, that i do not feel in any way shape or form interested in forming any bonds with him, i almost hate him.

yet...

i saw him genuinely destroyed after i told him, i'm a bad person, in every sense of the word, with all the sense of the world.


am i even a "real person"?

i should be hated, this is what i deserve.

and yet, i feel compelled to go on.

what is this?

i'm failing.

- Charlie.

a rough sketched silhouette of charlie.
charlie and her parents stand in a park, looking into the camera and smiling. The park in the background is a photograph, whereas the characters in the foreground are a stylised drawing. Charlie, an anthrophomorphic fox, is wearing a purple polo and slightly darker purple pants. Her dad has short orange hair that goes to the side, square glasses, and a beard on his chin. Her dad is wearing a red T-Shirt with a triangle on the top part of his chest and black arm sleeves, as well as purple pants and brown shoes. He is leaning his arm over on to Charlie's head. Charlie's mum has brown hair with an orange clip in said hair. She is wearing light purple pants, red shoes and a green hoodie with pockets. She is leaning over to charlie too, with one knee on the ground. The shoes of Charlie's mum are untied, with the laces lying partially on the floor.